The enemy uses our past to cause confusion and disorder in our lives. He is the record keeper of the past. He torments us with feelings of shame, guilt, condemnation, and a host of other serious feelings. He loves to remind us of things we have happened to keep us from feeling deserving of God’s love and grace.
Until we remove that power from the past, the enemy can always use it to drive a wedge between us and God.
How about the actual past, that luggage we carry for years; the mistakes, scars, hurt, and betrayals. We take it from relationship to relationship, or keep it buried somewhere deep down inside. It’s the chains we often hear about.
When we look at the Bible we see God giving us story after story of hot messes, people who were murderers, adulterers, liars, thieves, cheaters, people that were full of mess and sin, and God not only forgave them but then used them for amazing purposes
The coolest part about my ugly mess is that it now offers a beginning to my amazing transformation; I am a walking testimony to the love, mercy, and grace of Jesus.
But if I fail to acknowledge the girl who was lost in the world seeking to fill voids with alcohol, drugs, and bad relationships; who took pride in fighting, and being angry, if I am too afraid of judgment to acknowledge that was my past, how can I give glory to Him for transforming me?
The most amazing part of all is that the more I boast in my weakness and glorify God for His grace and mercy, the less useful it becomes to the enemy. Satan cannot torment me with a past I use as a testimony to glorify our King!
Being vulnerable is scary. Our sins may be different, but every Christian has a past. If Jesus Himself were to say today as He did back then, “let he without sin cast the first stone“, not a single soul could even pick up a shadow of a pebble.
If there are pieces of your past that you cannot let go, maybe it is because God is pushing you to turn your mess into your message. I am still working on this till this day!